I

Oh how fitting

To begin with a kiss the would put fairy tales to shame

Lights in the air and in the sky

With fingers intertwined like locks with lost keys

I held you. And you held me

The same air filling our lungs

Beneath the lights we danced and danced

Until we just stopped

Standing there. Tired and drunk on the night

Few words were said in that time

But at the end of it we kissed

you pulled me in because you knew i wouldn't

You knew I was afraid

But you knew I wanted to.




II**

Now there I was, years later

Eyes red from rain. Motionless

Motionless as I watch you walk away

...I guess I've always been watching you walk away

I took your hand

With a hand that spoke longing, need, want and fear above all else

Like the last breath of fresh air I would ever have

I held you in my lungs for as long as I could

I pulled you in.

At the basement of a car park

Beneath the glow of a fluorescent bulb

Serenaded by screeching tires of people who needed to be places.  

Our lips touched. For the last time.

And I let go

Because I knew you wouldn't

I knew you were afraid to hurt me

But I knew you wanted to.