"Everything will be fine, you'll see." "You don't deserve him." "He's an idiot for treating you that way." "Don't let him stop you from being yourself." "Don't waste your time thinking about him." "Do things that make you happy." "Thing about the good times you had with him." "Everything happens for a reason."
Really? Is that what I'm supposed to do? Well, thanks for the advice, but it's not really working for me! I'm sorry, I know you're all just trying to make me feel better. I'm just not in the mood to hear those cliches right now. Every single quote is true, but to me, there's nothing but lies. I can't think of any moment I spent with him, without seeing lies. The word "love" should never be used, if you don't mean it. Besides, all I want is for the pain to just leave me alone now. I'm tired of having my thoughts go back to him all the time. It's been two nights since I've seen him in my dreams. I wish I could say I'm happy about that, but I'm not. There are so many questions that are still left unanswered. Even when I talked with him on that day, questions were ignored. How can I trust someone, who lied to me every single day? There are times when I think I was just too tired to think that day. That maybe it never happened, and I'll wake up in my bed, happy. But I know that thinking these things won't make it true. I know the truth, and it's that he never loved me, but I loved him. I still love him, though I wish I could forget he ever existed. He just sits and reads, as if we were never together at all. How can he act like nothing ever happened between us? Does he really feel like this whole past year never happened? Well, he can think whatever he wants, even if I have to bear it. I just hope I can move on from this, because it's too painful.