i'm sorry i wasn't here before,
i'm so sorry that i failed you.
i'm sorry that the forty minute drive
used to terrify me
and now i come see you all the time.
i should have made the drive when
you were still alive,
i should have been here when
you needed me.
here i am now though,
here i am to see you,
your name sticking out of the ground.
i'm not going anywhere.
i'm
here now.