Outside you see me smiling
And floating through each day.
A little tired, a little thin
But overall, okay.

But you don't hear my anguished thoughts
That surface every night.
They plague me, haunt me, torment me
'Til I'm too weak to fight.

And so next day I come to school
With deeply shadowed eyes.
I smile, laugh, and speak on cue-
Living a life of lies.

A silent scream echoes inside
Reaction to my lie.
'Til with no warning it erupts,
And I crumble down and cry.

Come find me! Help me! Make it stop!
No! Keep out! Go away!
For if you come I've no control
Over the words I say.

Someday I might tell someone
Or maybe I just won't.
Please, someone just help me understand...

God only knows I don't.