If there was ever a time to fall in love
This is it
If I could explain why you
Are my definition of beauty
And that even as I pretend not to care your smile haunts me as it haunts the woods I walk in
I would.
I would argue that you are my sun
The warm droplets of rain
The whisteling wind
And your fingers paint silver lines
Into shivering aspen leaves.
The lines I love so much.
Your love haunts me in delicious tingles that
Splinter through my veins
It haunts me in the form of
butterflies that lift  my cheeks and when your lips kiss the air
Wild notes spill from your soul...
I love you more then I can say.
But
You terrify me
For years I have ran because your brilliance makes me doubt I could fall for any other human
I believe the words that collect around us
Are a cacoon of correctness
And your arms were made to hold mine
Everything screams how perfect
We are for eachother.
How wrong and perfect we are.
I want to apologize
If I sound like an idiot
It is merely because I am that grade six girl running to the bathroom to hide
Because her crush just walked into the classroom.
I am that love song played on repeat
That everyone hates because it's cheesy as ****
But still true
I've loved you since the first time we met.
And you are a star
With so many galaxies to explore
I don't want to limit you to just one.
So the deep green moss
Soaks up
My tears as I rejoice
In our friendship that I have tested
More then once.
I pray you will forgive my needy heart and disregard my unruly love
Because in the hidden parts of my body
I know you don't love me.
And I cannot
Do
Anything.
Except retain my dignity.
*goodbye