They told me that I am never truly alone But they didn’t tell me about the sleepless nights Where my thoughts take over and crush my lungs And my feet grow cold and my eyes grow hot When everyone is asleep and dreaming And the moon is laughing at my twisting and turning
They never warned me about the milliseconds in between sentences When my mind stops and time pauses And my hands clench and my eyes blur Where everyone is laughing or talking or crying And everything stops long enough for only me to notice
They didn’t speak about the time when I sit down at a table And the conversation stops and every pair of eyes look at me When the chewing ceases and my knees grow weak And my face gets painted the color of cuts in your arm Where my seat screeches into a conversation And people’s mouths shut
They never told me about these times But now I know that these are the moments that I Am Truly Alone