"I'll show you secrecy" You said, "Okay I love new things" I said Deep down I only went cause you wanted me to I realize now I was your escape but you pushed me out cause you knew it would rip me apart
Did you see me crying and screaming "why"? Of course you didn't cause you weren't there, but of course you wouldn't have seemed to care If you were there
A few hours before that In the car that rainy night It seems so cliche but the weather matched our eyes tears were falling out of the sky that's the loudest I've ever heard us be sitting in silence it seemed eternal for me this is probably what hell feels like having everything that matters But not able to touch or stare
there was no words to seal a deal I couldn't say much in the moment then I think back now of what I should've done I wanted you to help me with my problem but my problem can't help me with itself, now can it? there's nothing that would have made you stay but I can only write that. I could never say that