i've been the other woman before i've listened to those words like daggers to my heart hollow empty promises of impossible futures that you never actually see transpiring but you whisper in my ears like sweet nothings because by the time i realize that you're full of **** you'll be long gone and i'll be the one bleeding the one left to pick up the shards of myself i'll never piece together into a coherent self again
but you aren't married anymore you don't go home to another woman your first choice and hold her in your arms reach for her when you wake in the bathing light of the moon you aren't with a wife who has your heart and love
yet she still hold your heart captive you aren't legally connected to her but i still pay the toll stopped on the freeway of my life because you see her in my eyes and will i forever be forced to pay for her transgressions will you always see me as the same as the woman who shattered your world erased your ability to trust the ***** who seeks to be ****** the hurricane that destroys indiscriminately though how could you ever think that me the one who loves the one who tells you i love you would ever do that
if anything it's you whose motives and intentions should be questioned
i'm tired of being the other woman to my boyfriend who isn't legally married but is still irrevocably tied to the pain she tore into him pain for which i must pay the ultimate price
how could such a horrible vile woman ever be loved by him and what does that make me the one who can't be doesn't that make me even more contemptible than her doesn't that mean that i'm a ***** piece of trash
i wish i'd never met you
i wish i could disappear or go to sleep and wake up to a brand new world without you because at least if i'm alone i don't have to constantly feel rejected by the person i love most
i hate you but that's a lie i wish i could hate you
but i'd rather tear myself apart slice myself to ribbons ***** my insides until all my vital organs have been expunged