Feb 2016
We met just before society began it’s well rehearsed day,
no expectations were discussed,
just pure human interaction was what we could count on,
although we continued to see each other.
somewhere between tropico nights,
and days full of communication crimes,
I began to feel something I couldn’t put a finger on it,
you shut me out as if I were just a dream.
I let it go because as they say if someone cares
they will be back. sure enough, you came back.
apparently that was enough to let my heart drop,
further, than I ever thought it could.
I truly believed in you…….my bad.
one person out of dozens I’ve met since the first
I wish I would have questioned us, questioned, you.
but love doesn’t allow itself to be hindered.
I wish I wouldn’t have allowed myself
to invest any further consideration of possibilities
the pride you hold is so absorbed
the protection tactic you use isn’t fair
especially when someone’s heart is now in your hands,
a heart is not something to be taken for granted.
it should be something held like a mother holds
her premature baby that she is unsure if it will live.
I handed over my clearly recently mended heart,
put back together with a couple pieces missing.
this wasn’t unbeknownst to you,
the lack of humility you carry you place on top of a fragile human life.
someone’s core, especially one that has already been mishandled
by those before you should never be juggled like a grenade with the loose pin,
ready to completely explode and break into just a fine dust.
the clarity through action has made it clear I can’t leave the one part that keeps me breathing to such careless hands.
I just would love if you would let down your half-witted sense of protection.
Like myself, you will learn that it only works so long.
Those who do end alone, because all the companionship graciously given won’t be there. Due to your tall walls surrounding your screaming heart.
I have a plenty of love overflowing inside me, that you knocked out of my hands when presented to you. Scoffed at experiences that mortified to me to points most can’t even fathom. And disrespected someone that respected, and ultimately chose you.
Please be kind to the next, I know that this act won’t last for long if you continue to prey on those weaker than thyself. Granted, we know you attack those stronger, so feelings inside of inadequacy don’t surface.
but, just know if I disappear one day, I genuinely loved you and never want you to forget that, because I know I won’t.
Love & Art, 1991,
Henk Holveck
no expectations were discussed,
just pure human interaction was what we could count on,
although we continued to see each other.
somewhere between tropico nights,
and days full of communication crimes,
I began to feel something I couldn’t put a finger on it,
you shut me out as if I were just a dream.
I let it go because as they say if someone cares
they will be back. sure enough, you came back.
apparently that was enough to let my heart drop,
further, than I ever thought it could.
I truly believed in you…….my bad.
one person out of dozens I’ve met since the first
I wish I would have questioned us, questioned, you.
but love doesn’t allow itself to be hindered.
I wish I wouldn’t have allowed myself
to invest any further consideration of possibilities
the pride you hold is so absorbed
the protection tactic you use isn’t fair
especially when someone’s heart is now in your hands,
a heart is not something to be taken for granted.
it should be something held like a mother holds
her premature baby that she is unsure if it will live.
I handed over my clearly recently mended heart,
put back together with a couple pieces missing.
this wasn’t unbeknownst to you,
the lack of humility you carry you place on top of a fragile human life.
someone’s core, especially one that has already been mishandled
by those before you should never be juggled like a grenade with the loose pin,
ready to completely explode and break into just a fine dust.
the clarity through action has made it clear I can’t leave the one part that keeps me breathing to such careless hands.
I just would love if you would let down your half-witted sense of protection.
Like myself, you will learn that it only works so long.
Those who do end alone, because all the companionship graciously given won’t be there. Due to your tall walls surrounding your screaming heart.
I have a plenty of love overflowing inside me, that you knocked out of my hands when presented to you. Scoffed at experiences that mortified to me to points most can’t even fathom. And disrespected someone that respected, and ultimately chose you.
Please be kind to the next, I know that this act won’t last for long if you continue to prey on those weaker than thyself. Granted, we know you attack those stronger, so feelings inside of inadequacy don’t surface.
but, just know if I disappear one day, I genuinely loved you and never want you to forget that, because I know I won’t.
Love & Art, 1991,
Henk Holveck
