"Not tonight
No not tonight"
The lyrics play in my ears
I knew this was coming
In a wave or a rush

I was fine, okay , meh at the least
Then the song played
Speaking of the fear of love and rejection I feel so often
Then all the other thoughts of feelings came pouring out
In a wave with a rush

Woe is me
Woe is my grandma
Woe is my health
Woe is all around and all consuming
Woe is my life and others

These are the thoughts I wish would stay hidden
But not tonight
No not tonight
Tonight my feelings say "I demand to be felt"
I respond
Not tonight
No no tonight

This night I have nowhere to escape
All can hear my weeps
All will know my feelings are real
Even me

Not tonight
No not tonight
Spare me just one more day