I went deep down in the hole,
not physically but mentally,
i just wanted to be alone.
I couldnt find my words,
to show people where i’d go,
deep down in my emotions,
where darkness was all there was to show.
I searched frantically for guidance,
to try and figure out if this is as far as i should go.
I couldnt find the right time to let everybody know
i could no longer reach my goals.
I was tired and exhausted and i had nothing left,
it’s sad i know.
When you have these pent up feelings
that you never learned to let go,
they start eating at your insides
until you say **** this, its time for me to go.
life's better off without me,
no one will ever even know,
all the **** i had to go through,
to pop this bottle and take it straight to the dome,
pills that faded my vision,
tears that flooded my throat.
my eyes started to close,
left with nothing but remorse.
surprised to see light sneeking in through my eye lids,
hours later, i was blessed i didnt go.