I don't know how to explain the feeling without it sounding like it's normal.
I can smile and laugh,
I can talk but I rather not.
The sadness never ends.
I feel empty, and I feel like I'm not good enough.
No matter how hard I try to show how much I love and care, it's never enough.
My heart is tearing into pieces.. and I feel the darkness pulling me under its wing again.
I shouldn't have learned how to love or care because now I'm hurt!
And I don't know how to fix myself.
Whenever I feel like I'm okay, something always happens to tear my heart apart again.
I am a mess.
People think they can handle me when I can't even handle myself.
My heart is broken..
I could never say this so I wrote it on paper.