It 75 degrees out
sunny
and breezy
one of those perfect days.
Mom opens my blinds at
10 am
it's a beautiful day outside
she kisses my cheek
smiles and walks out of my room.
I go through the motions
call my friends
drive around
sit by the lake.
I smile and laugh more than
I did yesterday
and my thoughts seemed to
have been drained out
of my head.
Funny how I didn't
realize the warmth I felt
until now that I'm alone
and that little fire that was
flickering inside
was blown out by a gust of wind.
When I dropped my friend
off at her house her mom said
wasn't today beautiful?
I nodded and smiled.
But really,
it's been raining for 2 years now.