When she threw me out It was my fault I know. The drinking had started again. I slept in the car for days. Locked out at night. Yet still I drank my job was lost. but not as lost as me. I remember waking in the drunk tank. I was ***** unshaven. And my eyes were hollow. She paid my bail. I saw her through the bars of the cell. She was so beautiful. And so clean and lovely. She whispered quietly "I always loved you." "I still do." I felt so ***** I needed a shower and shave. But living rough is hard. I quietly said thank you I love you too. She touched my cheek with her finger tips. Like she used to touch my skin when we made love In our clean bed. She had tears in her eyes. As she saw what I had become. She said softly You know I lost our son as well. But tears filled my eyes as I stumbled away to that signpost for the town of oblivion