Tonight, I sleep with a heavy heart.
Knowing that my parents are in for
Something they'll regret l
Knowing that I could have stood up for my sick mom to my drunk dad
But never did because
I was a disaster myself

I know I'm not getting any sleep tonight.
My brain and my imagination will run wild
Creating scenarios that might have happened

This always happens.
I drag my body to sleep but
A wave of overthinking wipes me out
And brings me back to shore

Every night I pray that
I get amnesia when I wake up
But then again I don't want to forget
The feeling of falling in love and being loved.
I don't want to forget the oranges and lemons life has given me through family and friends.

Tonight, I sleep with a heavy heart.
With my sick mom beside me
And a pillow to cry on.