Jan 2016
Softly whisper in my ear
My tense heartbeat, you'll hear
The endless cry of the world,
It was too loud, I couldn't hear, i shouldn't care
As we engage ourselves in the ceremony
The lights are off, signaling the start of the play
Curtains slowly revealed the stage
The light shined on the center of attraction
I took my eyes off of you,
It's a woman. It's always the woman.
She seems to be finding something
When she already has all the things a woman could ask for,
Wealth, i can tell from the good clothes she wears,
The big house behind her, Happiness, from the smile that she flaunts,
Acquaintances swarm the stage, complimenting her from head to toe, while she just stands there, waiting,
staring from afar, something's missing,
it was all part of the play, i thought.
Acquaintances exits the stage but the woman,
The Actress, staring at me, seems to be saying something towards me
I couldn't hear, All heads turned towards me,
some smiling, looking at me with an evil grin, some are lonely and some are angry.
Wondering if it was all for me
I forced a curious smile, i'm somehow scared
They all gaze back at the stage
I felt a sudden coldness, the hair on the back of my neck is standing up
I wanted to leave immediately, it's uncomfortable
She held my hand so tight and cold
I refused, but she insist
My eyes still focused on the stage, she's still staring at me, the Actress,
She whispers so loudly, i couldn't hear the sound, now i know that it was for me, i read her lips,
It said, "For once, look at the girl next to you"
I turned, her hands still locked on mine
Oh i should have remembered,
The 3rd of September, it all came back to me
How you love to watch these plays that i found so boring,
the unhappy ending, the unrequited love, the tragic resolution.
How you said that we should constantly face our fear, how you said that you'll always wait for me, that you don't care about all the material things, these fake people who are there for you, for your wealth.
That i'm the only one you need.
I took your love for granted
I didn't believe it at all
But now i do, you never leaved despite of everything, you're in the other world, but your still here with me, everywhere i go.
In my mind, my thoughts.
I don't want you here. i wanna forget. Escape all of this. Escape you.
I'm so sorry, I closed my eyes to make it all disappear
I finally heard what you said before the play
It was a never ending cycle, a loop
The grieving of your families, their emotions
A play that will never finish, it's what you always wish
To be an Actress, To watch the play with me, Together,
We watched the play, where i gave all my genuine love and attention
Now i remembered, it was indeed,
Your death anniversary
My tense heartbeat, you'll hear
The endless cry of the world,
It was too loud, I couldn't hear, i shouldn't care
As we engage ourselves in the ceremony
The lights are off, signaling the start of the play
Curtains slowly revealed the stage
The light shined on the center of attraction
I took my eyes off of you,
It's a woman. It's always the woman.
She seems to be finding something
When she already has all the things a woman could ask for,
Wealth, i can tell from the good clothes she wears,
The big house behind her, Happiness, from the smile that she flaunts,
Acquaintances swarm the stage, complimenting her from head to toe, while she just stands there, waiting,
staring from afar, something's missing,
it was all part of the play, i thought.
Acquaintances exits the stage but the woman,
The Actress, staring at me, seems to be saying something towards me
I couldn't hear, All heads turned towards me,
some smiling, looking at me with an evil grin, some are lonely and some are angry.
Wondering if it was all for me
I forced a curious smile, i'm somehow scared
They all gaze back at the stage
I felt a sudden coldness, the hair on the back of my neck is standing up
I wanted to leave immediately, it's uncomfortable
She held my hand so tight and cold
I refused, but she insist
My eyes still focused on the stage, she's still staring at me, the Actress,
She whispers so loudly, i couldn't hear the sound, now i know that it was for me, i read her lips,
It said, "For once, look at the girl next to you"
I turned, her hands still locked on mine
Oh i should have remembered,
The 3rd of September, it all came back to me
How you love to watch these plays that i found so boring,
the unhappy ending, the unrequited love, the tragic resolution.
How you said that we should constantly face our fear, how you said that you'll always wait for me, that you don't care about all the material things, these fake people who are there for you, for your wealth.
That i'm the only one you need.
I took your love for granted
I didn't believe it at all
But now i do, you never leaved despite of everything, you're in the other world, but your still here with me, everywhere i go.
In my mind, my thoughts.
I don't want you here. i wanna forget. Escape all of this. Escape you.
I'm so sorry, I closed my eyes to make it all disappear
I finally heard what you said before the play
It was a never ending cycle, a loop
The grieving of your families, their emotions
A play that will never finish, it's what you always wish
To be an Actress, To watch the play with me, Together,
We watched the play, where i gave all my genuine love and attention
Now i remembered, it was indeed,
Your death anniversary
