My chest aches
A dull throb
My heart beating
Like a drum

My mind blank
Life shocked it
Into a silence
A loud quiet

I sit down
In a corner
In soft loneliness
Always forever alone

Sometimes I cry
Mostly I stay
In my misery
A personal hell

Hurt too much
Abandoned too often
Life mislead me
To this hell

People hurt me
Saying mean things
Now I think
Horrifying beautiful thoughts

It's their fault
For these ideas
Of lonely suicide
A quick relief

Round and Round
In my head
They happily dance
Because of them

One good slice
On the wrist
Blood flowing freely
My red savior

A pill bottle
Of sweet narcotics
Sleep is everlasting
It's beautiful freedom

Driving too fast
It's so dark
Just a swerve
A black heaven

Numbness overtakes me
Should I partake?
Am I brave?
Too much feeling

Life fades away
The soul cries
Alone in darkness
Realizing something awful

I gave up
Only to find
Pain is everlasting
I still hurt