Here's the thing-- I don't like to lie. So, if you asked me where I am from, I'd have to assess you and your prejudices before announcing in a single breath --
"I am a Malayali from Bombay raised in Saudi Arabia."
My identity comes in as a triple threat. And people treat me like an escaped convict "Oh, how many burqas do you own?" "Four, and they're still not enough to save me from your ridiculous questions."
I don't like to lie. So, I'll tell you I've had a terrible day and the best thing that happened to me today was lunch.
I will voluntarily admit that my feet hurt in those shoes And I'd rather be at home. But, my pen refused to stop writing.
I choose not to wrap my truths in acceptability Because my identity does not need to be graded (not like I deserve less than an A+) I decided to let my bottom sit on a throne in my own mind Rather than at the feet of self-proclaimed lords of the universe I'll fix my sights on what's here today.
I'm a queen of my own will; Of shoes that fit and jeans that never will.
I am also confused and I write to confuse some more. Maybe I'll just wrap myself in words And hand myself over to you and say -- "Congrats! It's a story."
A version of this was first performed live at The Hive in Mumbai on the 2nd August, 2015 and later published here - https://existentialcrisisalert.wordpress.com/2015/08/04/day-37-one-fear-at-a-time/