i'm continuing the family tradition line of alcoholics painful recognition of sober nights i loved him more when i was drunk i was too intoxicated to notice him slipping through my fingertips or let alone me loosing myself instead those hungover mornings ******* me over more than he did trying to remember what happened the night before like every time he broke my heart clueless and questioning myself breath full of scents of ***** and orange juice could it be worse?