Sometimes the inadequacy is so overwhelming, it just consumes you and at 1 am you’re curled up in a ball crying your heart out wishing this was eternity already that in all this pain and sorrow you could just find some light.. An inner strength a belief in yourself but more often then not all you can hear are the voices in your head running through the list of stupid things you did and said the day before. And you wish you could just shut it all out and fall asleep for a few precious hours of silence.