woke up at 6pm realising i've slept through  the day feeling like ****. and this time it feels like i have had enough. wanting to just kneel infront of my parents beg for their forgiveness, tell them "mom, dad, i'm sorry. i am so sorry i tried i swear i really tried but i can't fight this any longer. i'm all worn down and i'm too tired now. i'm sorry for everything. i'm sorry", pack my empty bag and leave everything behind. go wherever the tides will take me. cause i'm far too tired to fight anymore.