empty..
nothing..
floating through space..
that's what i am feeling at this moment..
i am here, but i'm slowly slipping away..
losing my grasps to the world of reality..
i'm just another body..
another lifeless being..
just another vessel..
my heart is ticking inside me..
like a bomb waiting to explode..
ripping my chest open..
leaving me vulnerable and misshapen.
lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub
the never ending rhythm..
i so much want to cease 'em..
lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub
every beat of this muscled thing..
only pain to my body it brings..
lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub
suppressing my lungs
denying any air inside..
holding myself in..
pushing my needs aside..
lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub
my stomach is growling..
butterflies inside me,fluttering..
lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub
i will my heart to stop..
why won't this agony let me be..

just want to disappear,
i am a waste of space..
i'm worth nothing,
but a slap on the face..
i shouldn't be here,
i'm just a big disgrace
i should just be alone,
a misfit in any place..

i know, yes, i admit.
i am a selfish *****..
i deserve this things.
for the endless hurting inside,
for the ever stabbing in my heart..

i just have myself to keep..
no one else to think..
just me, alone, forever.
nothing's gonna be better..


'til death brings the dark
who will hold the knife

'"I DO"