Remember when we talked about death?
I said it must have been a savior to those
who suffered
who seeks but does not found reason
who was left out
who was unloved, unadored
who was pained
and who regrets the most

but you said otherwise
you said death is the reason
for beauty, love, hope and good to exist
you said that people would not expect anything in life
without death...

I have gone to a lot of thinking again
I was troubled with sweet and sad memories this morning
and I have thought...

that the reason we fear death
the idea of oblivion
memories slipping into that black hole...that nothingness
it pains every inch of me and cringe my very soul.

that must be it.