There are those days
When you just wander around aimlessly
Shrouded in hazy daydreams
letting your feet take you places
It is on such journeys
that you end up there
Again

The path so familiar
calling to your inner desires
Against my better judgement
there I was
Again

My dark paradise
Where I was the happiest
Where I endured pain
and suffered loss
like I have never done
Before

Admitted into the heart of it all
Now looking in
as an outsider

She was beautiful
He clearly thought so too
as his fingers traced the contours of her face
Looking at her with so much
love and adoration

Perhaps
even more than he ever did
with me

I stood there
Frozen
A ****** of another's love
I should have left
But the pain
was better than **numbness