I now understood why you chose to stay with him after all this time. I don't care anymore what incited you to do so, whether or not I'm good enough for you, if I'm just a play thing to keep you feeling wanted while you're putting yourself together, or if you're too wallowed in
your pride to agree with the people closest to you that you're putting up with an ***. It's because you made the decision to love him, for all his taint and shortcomings.
I now understood.

Ah! the ways of the hopeless romantic
It's hard as a hopeless romantic to fall for another hopeless romantic
Chasing desperately; diligently, after happy endings of the stories we fashioned.