Pushing through my mind
In the form of swirling stigma,
My life of such defined shape
Is slowly losing form.
My world of pain
Is hurting far more
And I don't give my time
To hypothesize
How to turn this all around.
I'm hard on myself,
But this world requires
A rough exterior to survive.
There's absolute sorrow...
The purest collapse in reason
Locked deep in my cathedral.
/FORESIGHT.
I drove down a road
Paved with asphalt as thick
As all my good intentions.
I swerved right into the traffic.
Death felt like a warm embrace
Riding the coattails of your words.
So devious now to think of you
With that halo.
/DIAMOND.
But that's all abstraction
From the roots of my mind,
Cracking like fire
Seconds from meeting its fate
On the end of the extinguisher.
And that's how I hope to vanish
From this Earth...
So bright and then nothing,
Shattering any illusion of my worth...
I'm just another diamond
Held under your sledgehammer.
/GAMBLER.
Pour another shot of your venom
Down my fucking throat.
I love how bitter
You are at your core.
I'm begging for those eyes
To turn into mirrors
As they take the last of my life
With that last cherry kiss.
My charity is death,
My donation isn't evident.
Spin that wheel again for me
With my soul on red
And yours on black,
And see if my motif of lucking out
Can recur so flawlessly once more.