Mama always said you reap what you sow, but that was back when I was ten years old, back when I begged and cried she wouldn't leave me in the cold, hoping and pleading I would never grow like my old man.

Mama always said be careful what you wish for, but shouldn't she be the one careful when she sticks that needle in her arm, when she pops another pill to take away all the pain. But trust me when I say the easy train isn't always the greatest way. You took in a man, you barely knew, let him sleep in your house in your own bedroom, never believed your kids when they said they hated that evil man. But still you couldn't stop the black vans from coming, from taking the kids away, from life changing and never being the same. Oh god. The sun rises and the sun sets and I still hold on to your beautifulness before the drugs took it all away like a thief In the night who didn't stray from stealing my prize possession someone I looked up too, but know what can I do but look down upon you. I hope one day you can actually grow up and realize I do love you, but I can't because I hate what you do. Behind the eyes of a childhood memory I write this, but with heart of a lion I type this, and with the will of a fighter I finish this.