This really will be the last time.
I will just disappear without a goodbye.
Doubt it will make a difference.
I kept trying to prove my love.
What for?
I just ended up sinning with you.
I wasn't uplifting your soul but only dragging it down.
Lustful thinking was all we had going towards the end.
Pay for me so that we can sexually discover one another.
This is what we have come down to.
Selfish wants and needs.
My inner core is burning from humiliation.
I wanted something with meaning a solid friendship.
I was hoping for the impossible.
We just end up sinning.
The same patterns for over a decade.
Too much time and energy placed into this.
Suffocation and space is all I hear if I am not moaning after you.
Whatever little friendship we had is no longer.
Communication is poor.
Our last lifeline is burning down.
Make God a priority or else what I hold so dear will be what causes so much pain.
Letting go of my favorite sin.
So you and I have a chance of a happier hereafter.
Even in silence I am still trying to prove my love.