"DAY 1” waking up doesn’t feel normal Im scared to leave my bed i feel controlled with no power left This awful atrabilious feeling i have Just gonna go back to sleep
“DAY 2” Made it out of bed today nothing has changed I have class soon Im scared to go out side doesn’t feel right doesn’t feel normal Shower to try to fix this feeling
Okay made it to class sitting in the front row i feel like everyone is staring at me i feel they know I’m not okay they are reading every move i make. But i know they aren’t and I’m just thinking to much
“DAY 3” Waking up this morning i feel anxious i have this rushed feeling feels like the world is waiting for me gonna go shower
So out of the shower my mind settled for a little bit i was comfortable but numb numb to everything To scared to go out side today
“Day 4” Can i even call this a separate day? I haven’t been to bed yet sitting on this porch looking at nothing lighting another cigarette **** i need to stop this another pack gone time seems to be moving so slow yet so fast tonight
Its 5am time to try going to bed
Its now 10am sleep isn’t happening been laying here staring at the ceiling hoping for something to change to feel anything I’m numb to everything my phone keeps ringing texts, calls. Cant even bring myself to pick it up
**** this
“DAY 5” Things seem to be getting better i left the house today felt terrified for most of it didn’t feel comfortable where i was laying in bed i finally feel the war has stopped my mind has finally caught up taking deep breaths