You go through girls like I go through books but you found it strange how I preferred how they smell over perfume
There were days where I gave you everything I had on a silver plate and there were days when this plate was nowhere to be found
I fell in love with you, I fell in love so hard it broke me
And ever since you left my heart has been beating differently

I don't sleep anymore and I have a constant lump in my throat growing like a tumor
I'm losing people like tree leaves on an autumn afternoon
I think I'm losing my mind as well

In my dreams, you were still gone
And I was searching for you in the dark with my eyes closed
There was no hope
There is no hope
With everyday that passes, I know I'll wake up and you will still be gone

I miss you so much my bones ache
I wonder how you managed to detach yourself from me like you were a garden and I was just a wilting flower
Nothing matters anymore
Not the books
Not the trees
Not the dreams

Ever since you were gone, I had to bite my tongue so hard I think it's cut off
Now the only thing I could do is write a hundred poems that belonged to the ocean and leave them at your door
Hoping one day, you'll ******* tears in them
And maybe, just maybe
You'll find your way back to me.