I have read books and watched movies and listened to songs About death which made me curious How is it to be dead? What does afterlife look like? Is there really life after death? Curiosity made me want to **** myself SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. Jump and fall? Dive and drown? Cross the road and get hit by a bus? But then I realized, I just had to fall in love Only then would I die a thousand times in a thousand ways.