I needed a father Not a friend, I needed someone to chase the monsters outFrom under my bed. I needed guidance and praze , Not someone I didn't hear from for days. I needed someone to teach me how to ride a bike , Not someone who brought me to drug fights. I needed someone to dry my tears, Not someone to get me beer. I needed someone to right me when I was wrong , Not someone who did drugs , to make them feel like they belong. I needed you there . The disappointment I can no longer bare. I've held these words in for so many years , I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't even care. I hoped that one day you'd chose me over drugs, But I realized that the high was you're only love. I always tried to be daddy's little girl. I tried my best to belong in your ****** up world. I realize now , that I have never known you, As much as I always wanted to. You chose your addiction over me, As I grew up it was clear to see. I always had hope. But in the end , You chose dope. I saw the life from your eyes slowly disappear, Loosing me was no longer a fear. I tried so hard to help you out, But you always brushed it off as if you didn't know what I was talking about. Weight started to shed and I could see your bones, With a room full of people , I have never felt So alone . If You taught me anything it is this , Not every one should have kids.