I find it ironic that i was the one that hated him so much I pushed her to leave
Now I'm the only one of his children to share his disease
Poking my fingers using needles I bleed
I have to be cautious of everything I eat
Some call it the sugar but it's better known as diabetes
Wishing so badly something would come to free me
I feel like a prisoner trapped by my own health
You can't buy a cure no matter your wealth
I try to convince myself i can deal
All the while praying to God to heal
Rid me of this pesky yet dangerous disease
I'm begging I'm pleading and asking the Lord please
Please don't let me pass this to my sons
Let it stop with me let me be the last one
I've lost too many family members due to this curse
I'm watching my father suffer through something even worse
I use to want distance from my dad.       now seeing my reality i guess i can't be mad
This is now what bonds us it makes us distantly close
This is an estranged relationship different from most
I promise to be better and there for my sons
For them I'll keep fighting until this battle is won
I'll be to them what he never was to me
Caring, involved and judgment free
I guess it counts that at least he's trying now
I see his ill state and can forgive enough to lessen the stress lines in his brow
I'll put the past to rest and give the present my best pray for the future cause life is just a big test