******* nothing threatening to draw me close hold me like the *** freak in his chest did stroking my hair and cooing in my ear dripping words as he puts his hand between my legs
ringed fingers gripping my neck shoving away my frightened fingers trying to break free on the couch he ruined my favorite movie as a child taking my body from my control as it played in the background a sick contrast
jesus reminding me what i am losing in my mistakes as i cling to the cross they crucify me on the man that forces himself on me a much bigger more tangible one than the god that told my father it was okay for him to come stay