Trying to make sense of what happened
when my sister died last year
kinda lost when she died

Been a whole year since her death
really has it been that long
feels like I've been in a bubble
Where I would not let anyone in

Breathing because I feel unworthy
why was she taken and not me
Living and not really seeing
why am I feeling so guilty
I have done nothing wrong

Other than being two years older
it should of been me
not her...she had a whole lot more to give

I miss her so.....

I dont know if I can move on
how can one do so after a sibling as passed on....
I mean parents your expected....right
but siblings....thats a whole new ball game.....
how can I cope....how can I breath

then I'm told in her memory
I must live....how can you do so
if you just want to be with her too....
its time for me to let go......

Taking the first step feeling so alone
I know I am not the only one feeling this pain
but it feels like I am alone......

A tear trickles down my cheek as I remember...
I smile knowing it will take a while
but I am trying....
writing helps me to deal with the pain....

Its time to move on....love you dearly sister
always in my heart....I love you so....bye...