It’s 3 am and here I am wide awake
So many thoughts going on in my head
And the ones that stand out to me the most are the ones of you
And they’re feelings of curiosity and loneliness
Curios of what could’ve happened if after those five months we did try again and if we never stopped in the first place and if you were not taken by another
And the more I wander what these thoughts could mean I miss you more
And how could I possibly miss you after such a long time
After everything that happened
It’s like every emotion I felt and heart ache I went through meant nothing
Because here I am at 3 am missing you
They do say this is the lonely hour
But God have I never felt more remorseful for allowing things to end even if it wasn’t under my control
Yet at 3 am you are sound asleep in your bed
Probably dreaming of her
Not even one thought of me
And as weird as it
It’s not okay to me