i'm wanting like hard brittle things want to break
stuttering, trying to explain to the organized, box trained how badly i need a little chaos
cause those patterns out there in the stars make way more sense to me than your day planners
And i've tried. half my life i've tried the people pleasing parts of me, still ******* trying to play the expected parts so much so that my own offspring - my own blood looks at me now with foreign eyes reflecting the familiar disapproval
as I burn up the parts of me i'm done with the parts they told me I had to be letting all the "ugly" colors bleed through
everyday I get a little closer to what i'm supposed to be...
*and I hope you find your way out of that box, baby girl. i should have been a better teacher*