I think my fears has swindled me The way l was used to do, now its not the same l have lacked courage even from the beginning because l didn't believe in myself, was thinking that it might not be the way l wanted but at last l realized I am the one dying from inside.
When she smile even not at me, that's when that feeling of love start to come. When her face is looking angry, in my heart its more than a burden to carry. I have never loved someone like this before. Maybe its my misconception I don't know. What l am conscious of is vivid I am dying from inside.
Should I let it end up like this Dying from inside to me is like a mess I wanna try but where can l find the strategy how can I try when l am loosing courage Maybe this might be the only way to vent Letting her read this up to the end. Even though it was a tight end, but this might let me transcend. Dying from inside,I can't wend.