I am 13 years old.
He’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
Intriguing
Dangerous
Enticing
I take his hand and he holds it tight
I want to be just like him
I am 14 years old
He’s the most confusing thing I’ve ever known
Unsustainable
Irascible
Addicting
I cling to him at the table and in the dim light of the bathroom
I want him to stay by my side
I am 15 years old
He’s the most constant thing in my life
Reliable
Suffocating
Destructive
I walk on eggshells around his demands
I want him to take a few steps back so I can breathe
I am 16
He’s the most terrifying thing
Notorious
Manipulative
Deceitful
I scream for silence in the dead of night
I thrash to break free from his grip
I am 17
He’s apart of me now
Dramatic
Abnormal
Crux
I wear him like a ball and chain
I want to be free
I just want to be free.