When you're as sad  as I you dont break down you melt.
You sit thinking about it...
Then you  search sad quotes or write poems or search about the zodiac compatibility or whatever helps you through the moment.
But then your eyes swell with water and you try to continue through blurred vision and soon you can feel those hot salty tears falling slowly down your face. You feel relaxed then but it really isn't enough to fix that gap. Nothing truly is.  And the worse thing is you are so vulnerable then...Anyone, him, her, could walk in and you would fall in love with them a thousand times over...and then you cry and continue to melt to the thought and soon your heart melts so much there is nothing left.