I wish that who I was
would be so much more than who I am when I'm with you,
but every moment near you is the entire galaxy bursting from the inside out
stars swirling around me in bright ablaze.
Even if the look you give me is one of dissatisfaction,
those eyes are still ones that pierce a dagger into my heart.
The worst pain in the world
is realizing that a masterpiece is still a masterpiece
even when it doesn't want you anymore.
I love you.
******.
I want to scream it from the rooftops.
I know that I'm insane,
but I promise to you that my intentions are as pure as the white on your teeth.
Good Lord, I felt so secure with you.
Now that you're gone,
it's so hard to face the pain
and realize the only reason I hadn't felt it was
you were covering it.
Shadowing all of my fears and insecurities.
My heart doesn't want to believe that all it had been were pretty words said at the right time.
You know that I always have bad dreams,
but nothing is more unsettling than knowing that when I lay my head down on the pillow tonight I will have perfect memories of you.
Only when I wake up will the nightmare begin.