I am rude with her
I am always rude with her, she says
Why can't I talk like a normal person?
What is my problem?
Oh God.
I am rude with her, she says.
I don't get why I would be,
Either.
It's just that sometimes when life
hits me hard, like really badly,
and I decide to pour a part into
someone else, a friend, for example
by just sharing,
by just saying,
to just minimize a bit of my insanity;
I can't.
I try talking but I stop midway because I realize that I can't.
I can't share things with you or her or them.
No one. I can't!
So it's not like I can't talk normally with you
I do want to
I do try to, (and mostly it's just me trying anyway)
But it's this that I
Don't feel normal anymore!