In the haze of alcohol,
I found out the truths of the matter before anyone else.
I found the contradicting schemes I've placed myself in.
A person of honor and code I couldn't be;
Inside lurked a darkness.
My emotions were too flamboyant for even my own body to handle.
Pour the glass, hold the ice.
I need to feel fire in my veins,
Clouds in my head.
I need haze.
At home,
I've learned what caged animals knew,
The truth about fear,
The motivator for who I am.
Reasons why I've always needed someone to explain who I am.
to
tell me I'm not who I really think I am.