I cannot fathom what it is about me that caught your interest When I was far less, and far below all the rest
What made me enticing What made me desirable What made you change Into something downright miserable
Maybe I was good for your ego Something to show off Maybe I was there for your convenience Just barely good enough
You hurt me Hit me Kicked me Casted me aside
When you were supposed to be my safe place Why was it from you I felt the need to hide
I carry scars Memories Demons Fears
But along with all this I've gained wisdom Far beyond my years. One of the things I never got used to Was no longer hearing the sound of your heart beating in time with mine.
And even through everything The sad The happy The joy And the pain I still don't think it was our time
You can argue that I'm wrong Because I usually am But they say fight for what you want Am I wrong to take a stand?
I can't make you love me the way you said you would But at the end of the day you've gone away and I can no longer remember the beautiful words you said I should.
But that's all they were, words that worked their way into my head Caressed my thoughts And pleased my feelings
And when you left, you left me dead.
I wish you knew just how badly you hurt me I wish i didn't drown it all in other places