I have this horrible thing where I don’t feel worthy of anything. I don’t really feel worthy of a job or worth any kind of wage because in all honesty I don’t see that I have much to offer the world.
I never feel entitled to a break. I can never relax and guilt basically runs my life. I always feel like I should be doing something because otherwise I’m a waste of time and space.
I never feel like I’m worth anyone’s attention or time. Being a burden on people is one of my greatest fears and it’s why I never ask for help. I don’t want to be a daily burden on any person - not that I’d be worth a person’s time in any regard.
I don’t feel like I’m worth love. Or friendship, for that matter. I’m at a point where I don’t even know what the word ‘friendship’ really means.
I guess some people will say “change your mindset”, but that’s such an easy thing to say and not something I’ve been able to do. It’s been this way since I was a child and I guess I can hope things will get better, but right now all I’m trying to do is manage my mental state and avoid another breakdown