I closed my eyes again last night,

Hoping for dreams of the misery I love so much

The kind you can only bring

The sweet, cold touch of your fingers

Or the disgustingly loving sound of your spiteful voice

Anything to get me out of this terrible nightmare

But there's no feeling here but perpetual numbness

As I lay here staring into the darkness

My lungs grow heavy with the cries I've stifled,

With the frigid breaths that I dare not breathe in your presence

Even though you're gone now

And there's only an empty space where you once sat beside me

I can't do anything here by drown

Filling the room with my tears so that I'm left

Drowning again in the unbarable sea of silence

That you had found me in so long ago

Holding me by that delicate thread

And dangling me above the water's edge

I believed so much in the light you gave me

But it was blinding and by the time you had let me go

I was already deeply submerged under the surface of my dispair once again

My eyes locked hazily on the distant figure of you as you left

But drowning is a hobby of mine

And I'll do it again tomorrow night