Things never worked out for my advantage
things always got in the way
the feeling of losing someone that you hold close to your heart
is indescribable,
someone you've been friends with for 8 years being destroyed
what's worse? Losing them or losing yourself?
I always thought that I could beat this, well I'm losing.
Tears come streaming down my face,
when I care for someone I hold them very close to my heart.
I hate the feeling of being used constantly. I don't know if the light will guide me home or not.
but what is home?
Home is filled with broken promises and disappointments, where we were all once happy and filled with excitement
but now we just sulk inside waiting for the day to be over.
Everything in my life isn't what I hoped for.
Things change, people change,
I changed.
fix me.
I'm way over my head about this. It's hard to talk about these things in my life
to someone else. They always look at me in disbelief and say "oh"
or they just think I'm over exaggerating, yet, they will never understand what it's like to be in my shoes.
What if I never meet someone who will make me feel so alive?
I see them all around, embracing each other
they all look so happy with each other.
But then again I don't even believe in love so how could I possibly find it for myself?
I've seen so many failed relationships in my life especially the one I thought would never break. I looked up to them, Their relationship was my idea of love.
Well not everything is what we thought it would be. Right?