I have a healthy fear of lying To myself and those around me Often these lies They won't die No matter how hard I try I just feel like I'm dying. And it's apparent often, probably.
But I can't help the lies said to me. No, those I just have to accept. See when I hear The things I fear When death is near I can't help but worry. I worry about what I have left.
No it's not too much anymore. In fact it feels like nothing. But then I really get it And honestly you can bet it Won't be long before I let it Weigh me down. Down to a place I never thought I'd be.
Take me away from here. This house is filled with memories. With the smells of the past The sights can only last I can only hope to leave fast Cause it's poison. Yes, this house is poison.
I used to go there for comfort. And often our vice is our love. But when my bed Where I lay my head Is for another instead I can't take it. Even if I think I might want to.
No I've got to get out. I can't do this anymore. I need to move along Sing my parting song Wave goodbye to all the wrong And leave. Because this air chokes me.
It makes my stomach turn And my lung constrict. My breath is gone. There is no dawn So I have to move on. For my sake. And anyone else who's trapped
This house is nothing but sweet poison. And it's about time I learned how to deal with it.
I wrote this when I felt sick with depression. I remember my stomach hurting I felt so much emotional turmoil.... Not a good time.