Finally this day has come. To get another go with the sun, A year has it been since the daylight shun. The shadows of Mordor were almost to get me done.
What a fine day to have an adventure. Having to save a princess as a departure. The signs are being obvious Birds are flying back to the Mountain, There is no time to be in bore, I need to hurry and reclaim back my Erebor. I’m in wonder of what she is doing. Probably she made plans already by now. Or maybe she didn’t decide on going. Thought that she might be Lonely under the Mountain. I have to get going to save her plain, Must get her out quickly of that fiery chain.
But wait, What’s this? My legs are unable to move. Why is my heart trembling with fear? I’ve been waiting for this my entire time, I don’t get it. I don’t get it at all. I’m shaking pathetically, This is getting ridiculously annoying. Move it! Why is my body not responding? I can’t control my body no more It’s totally stuck! Is the sun causing this? But I’m no troll to be affected by this. I’m the Bilbo on this journey, I’m the appointed burglar To steal the precious Arkenstone So what’s happening now really? Am I scared that much That my own body is doing what I should be doing? If this fear is about the journey I’ll take, The dangers I’ll encounter, The perils I’ll meet. That wouldn’t be a serious problem for me not to go. But it’s different. This doesn’t make sense. I need to get rid of this fence. But It’s no use, I’m stuck in this hole in fuse. Stuck in this Shire, While that desolator Smaug is causing fire.
I’ve forgotten the time. The shadows are back. Here I am underneath the moon’s refine, Standing still in charcoal leather black Not resisting anymore. I completely stood in my own accord. Tears are spilling down my face. I can feel in my veins the sorrow, And thinking about it made me wonder If I can make it til tomorrow.
Then, So sudden it came to me in a flash The reason why I did not move Why I did not meet her. It’s because a year ago I was there. In front of her. My precious Arkenstone Under the Mountains The kings jewel. The jewel that rejected my tiny hands, That reached beyond the Middle of Earth Just for her. The same jewel that replaced me with a greed of a dragon. That burned the glow of what’s inside me.
And now I remember it all. Clear as the sky above me. I am no Bilbo Baggins. There is no treasure waiting for me. No adventure as destination. Because this, This is just the Anniversary of my Rejection.
I am no Bilbo Baggins and this is not as if There and Back Again. I dont really know why I wrote this.