Today I was walking along with you
We were hand in hand
Im so sorry
Oh god, I'm so sorry
I'm sorry for what I might do to you
I'm sorry I can feel your love me and I can continue to hate myself.
I'm sorry I can not see what you see in me.
I'm sorry I hate myself with the passion I should be loving you with
I'm sorry I can never love myself the way you love me.
I'm sorry I can not feel happiness along with you
I'm sorry you see me as whole and yet I feel so empty inside. About to crumble
I'm sorry I begin to cry silently in your arms, so you'll never know
I'm sorry I feel guilty when I look in your eyes. knowing I might hurt you
Im sorry I'm not actually what you see. I Push you away so that you don't see how broken I am
Deepest, I'm sorry I will leave you with a tsunami of pain
I'm trying
Oh god, I'm trying
To ebb that pain once I'm gone.
But now, all I can think is
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
As I form a fake smile
Walking along with you
Hand in hand
But I know, these days are numbered